An Unqualified Yes

I’ve been stewing over how to get this party started for the past few days and tonight as I was throwing myself out of bed to do my devotionals I realized there’s no better time than the present.  Because work and life have been conspiring against me over the past few weeks my devotional time has suffered and become a inconstant hot mess.  As in radioactive and darn near ready to explode.  I love doing my devotionals.  Adore them.  Currently I’m working through the devotional “SOLO: The Message: An Uncommon Devotional” and having a heck of a time.  I’ve restarted it once already and given that the New Year is coming there’s a very good chance I’ll go all traditional and legalistic by starting it over again on January 1.

The trouble is making sure I’m getting the most out of them by working through the Words of God, allowing the questions and prayer challenges marinate in my heart and stew in my brain.  It’s fantastic when it all goes according to plan but more often than not my day looks like a very badly written episode of “The A-Team” wherein the closing moments are pulled together using what little was left after Macgyver blew something up.  Only there’s no convenient ending to it but more or less me throwing myself into bed.  And not getting my devotionals done.

Throw in my health, weight and general stuff that’s just not where it should be and you have A Mad Monk.  Only it’s not the “good” kind of Mad Monk who’s a bit Doctor Who with ample provisions of Jesus and a sprinkle of hilarity.  It’s the bad kind of Mad.  The kind that ends up locked up in a padded room with voices in one’s head.  Or something probably much milder than that.  I wrote that sentence to allay the fears of those that read this and imagine I’ve gone insane or something.  Fair warning – I’m given to a bit of hyperbole.

And so here I am at the crossroads.  I’m thirty years old, unmarried, non-girlfriended and finding myself wondering if it’s socially acceptable to have a mid life crisis after three decades on Earth.  Survey says…no.  Pending the approval of said crisis I’ve got some work to do and lists to make.  First on that list is my quiet time with God.  Second is my weight and health.  Third is my heart and mind.  In the coming days, weeks and better part of December I’ll be putting down the foundation for what 2013 will look like for me and by proxy – this blog.

It’s going to be hard, intense, unpleasant, and generally gratifying.  I’ve not sorted how to chronicle all this delightfully entertaining character arc business quite yet but never fear randomly few readers – there will be answers.  There’s at least another blog entry or two I can add to my padded portfolio of prose.

And just so we’re clear – if you’re interested in joining me in this journey – you can.  I’ve put a Facebook page together where you can pound keyboard keys into oblivion telling me all about how this is the worst plan you’ve seen ever in the history of histories.  Because that’s what I understand the internet is about.  Or something.

Thanks for reading through the drivel.  You can use the commenting feature on this blog if you so desire.

I’ll find a unique and eccentric way to end these posts as this project is still very much under construction.  For now I’ll say good luck, Godspeed and good night.

Hold The Line

The week has ended and the weekend is officially under way.  I’ve got many things bouncing around in my brain as I prepare for another week of learning and working as Monday waits in the wings.

I’ve got a few things I’m having a very hard time ignoring and they’ve always been there and I can’t walk away from them anymore.

I may have to close this blog.

Why you ask?  Well, as many people would tell me I’m putting my name out there with this blog and I’m pretty up front about my opinions and where I stand.  I also feel I do  pretty good at discussing where disagreements may occur and coming to a point of either compromise or agreeing to disagree.

The point is that now I’m taking on a full on leadership role within a large company with up to twenty people reporting to me (or more who knows) and there are dangers with putting my name, face, opinion, etc out there in the world.

A friend of mine password protected his website and locked it down tight a few years ago and warned me of continuing to do what I do with my blog.  I dismissed it for the most part as I wasn’t in the position I am now which is why are these thoughts are coming from the back of the mind to the front so quickly.

People talk about “Googling” people and I know it and use it well but many of the people in different companies I’ve worked for don’t even know how to do it so I’ve felt somewhat comfortable blogging as I have over the years.  And now I stand on the cusp of breaking into something new and fresh as a leader which carries it’s own responsibilities and what not.

If I close down the blog I would still blog somewhere but probably obscure who I am and do what many have done in the blogging world.  I’m still set to write for Denver Metroblogs as that’s a city thing and is more of a “professional” blogging thing compared to this pile of stones I call a journal.

So I wanted to throw this out there to whoever might be reading out there.  What do you think?  I’m leaning towards closing and moving simply to avoid the issues that would come about if someone from work found this thing and started reading too much into what I talk about here.  I’m asking for your experiences and how you do it on your blog(s) etc.

I’ll put a deadline of decision time for Sunday Night @ 10:00pm Mountain Time.