Hello. My name’s Aaron. And I’m a complete screw up. Totally. Completely. From start to finish. If I was to travel forward in time I would probably find myself all those years later still a regular mess it up kind of guy.
That little paragraph sums up just about how I feel at this moment. I’m almost 60 days into this project and I’ve fallen behind and sent the wagon flying off the cliff in a flaming arch of embarrassment. There was no getting back on the wagon after last week and this weekend. I feel like Marty McFly in just about every scene when he get’s beat up, shamed and then he loses the girl.
I think this project was designed to give me a nice dose of hardcore reality and I can truthfully say that mission has been accomplished. While I won’t be landing on a aircraft carrier to celebrate this discovery (old Bush jokes? Anyone?) I will put my metaphorical foot down. Enough!
I’ve gained my ugly weight back. I feel fat. I haven’t been eating well. I’m also not sleeping as well as I should be for various reasons. And my brother still has me beat in the whole getting married before me bit. If there ever was a case for the A-Team I think I win the prize.
I expect that I will have several more of these, “I’M MAD AS HELL AND I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE” fits and spurts throughout the project. It’s part of my policy (always wanted to write that) of being fairly open, honest and bluntly transparent about the struggles and trials of turning myself one hundred and eighty degrees. It’s like the Titanic except instead of hours I have months and months of treading dangerously close to the iceberg of Death.
So a few notes/changes. I will not be trying to accomplish my goals all in one day. I must at at least accomplish one a day. Additionally I will have to twitpic my daily food intake to show that I am either eating healthy or eating badly. I’m also getting back to the gym on the double. As I’m turning into a rolling stone of lard, I need to put the full reverse and all stations to battle stations.
I’ll be back to writing this thing once a day (or doing a vlog if I can muster). So there’s that.
Onwards, eh!
It sounds like you need a cheerleader.
It is the process of discontent that drives us all to change – hmmm quite a profound truth, simple but true. Hang in there – you can do it!
@Dad, thanks! And yes Casey…I needz one. Accepting applications.