Well, today is much better than yesterday. I actually got some things done and it’s not 10:00pm and pushing my limits of sleep seeing as I get up every morning at 4:30. Today was a great day as I woke up feeling better. That might have something to do with the fact that I burned 400 calories yesterday and pushed my body a bit. I also didn’t eat as much for dinner as I usually do and balanced it all out a little. The beauty of all this change is the small steps I’m taking to turn my gigantic Titanic life away from the iceberg of death. It’s like matrix time and at the end of the movie I won’t end in magnificent let down and failure. Matrix Revolutions I’m talking to you and that insanely long death scene.
The part about this project is when I do make progress I feel a small spike of satisfaction that indeed I’m going somewhere. Even if that’s backwards on certain things one day I’m at least getting one of these five objectives whamed bamed thank you officer. Today was a struggle at the gym because there is clearly not enough treadmills for everyone that wants to play. So I biked and burned 200 calories. It felt great (natural highs FTW!) and I’m trying to eat healthy and smart tonight.
There’s been reoccurring theme in my life over the last week or so and it’s startling how often this word comes up. Lonely. It’s a powerful word that evokes a palette of images and words that flows as I remember moments in my life where that word and more defined me. There’s all different kinds of loneliness and I’ll be talking more in detail in the podcast this Friday at 10pm Mountain. The book that brought the final light to my heart is a mildly amusing but so far uninspiring sequel. Dracula The Un-Dead is the official sequel to the (I haven’t read this) original and evocative Bram Stoker’s Dracula. It’s written by a nephew or cousin and it starts off with a mysterious note. Then it literally gives away the farm, the kitchen sink and the entire Rockette dance line explaining everything so there’s no real mystery as to who the darkness that lurks might be and dashes any hopes of actual mystery or suspense.
This is biased because I’ve read the masterpiece The Historian by Anna Kostova that I think is one of the best Dracula novels out there in my limited view of the Dracula Novel world. It’s long but seriously rich (some would say over rich) in detail and atmosphere. It’s a book that requires you to pay attention for all the details help drive the story and drive you to keep reading until the very end when you catch your breath, sanity and sleep. It’s very good. Compared to amateur hour with Stoker’s relative, it’s like black and white.
The one thing this book evokes well is the loneliness of each of these legendary characters. Each has gone their own way since defeating the dark lord of vampires and it hits home how alone each of these people can be in their own way. How they’re dealing with the loss of old friends and the simple fact that they withstood the darkest darkness the world could throw at them. It’s a interesting facet to the story that could have been explored further.
Let’s do the thing where we look at how good or bad I’m doing.
