I’m not sure how to articulate my feelings this evening, but I can honestly say if you ever need someone to take the “let’s be friends” speech bullet for you, I’ve been trained to the point of being a Jedi Knight in that category. I figure I’ll keep getting this speech until eventually some lucky gal out there says, “Let’s be more than friends” and I’ll totally have a second stroke in surprise. I figure the second stroke will lessen my right side a little more so I’ll actually break even somehow.
I think if VH1 or MTV were to build a dating/tough love show around me it’d be hilarious, terrifying and touching all at the same time. I’ve got some pounds to lose and some muscle to gain so there’s the “Biggest Loser” angle. I don’t date well at all so there’s the “Tough Love” bases covered. Oh and I’m a pretty conservative guy when it comes to the physical so there’s the “Real World” topper on the top to finish it off.
I know there’s someone out there for me (God, you hear me?) and I know that I’m not meant to be alone. Part of this insane macabre 365 days of DeLay project is to help augment my weaknesses and build up my stengths. So far with 17 days in, I’m flailing with the biggest part of this project – getting out. I was thinking earlier today that I would make the month of February revolve around the subject of “Love”, “Dating” or “Relating”. Given today’s wonderful frustrational (it is a word dangnabit) spiral, I’m having a hard time convincing my heart it’s a good idea.
My mind knows well and good what needs to happen but the gun shy blood pumping muscle retreats when things get tough. This is a lot of why I’ve been as Hermit since June. And I’ve got to stop the cycle.
I think it’s time to step it up another notch. I’m not entirely sure what that looks like, but I’m turning to you. The nameless, faceless and at times…notevensureyouexistface readers. Your suggestions are welcomed. Consider yourself officially promoted to armchair psychiatrist. Ideas on what to do in Denver, local dating adventures that are sure to send me into a paper bag inflating frenzy or ideas on how between now and 2011 am I going to transform into something better for myself and everyone around me.
To the tale of the tape –
1 – Lose it or Die – Burned 615 Calories today doing a hour of swimming. WIN!
2 – Get out! – Rinse, repeat, etc FAIL
3 – Write it like you want it – ARG! FAIL!
4 – Rock out to more – Via NPR – Teddy Pendergrass.
5 – Get Smart-er – Pushing through Dying of the Light
Total Win/Loss for today – 3/5
Meh = completion rate.
Grade = Pbbbttt!
Hey, Aaron. I saw your tweet and it brought me here. What you’ve written reminds me SO much of myself about 15 years ago. Never had a girlfriend through high school; two short failures of relationships in college; and then nothing for about five years — and I lived in the middle of nowhere in Nebraska. I don’t think I can help much in telling you how I met my wife because we met online in a Yahoo friend group back in the “pioneer days” of the internet; I don’t think what happened then would even apply now. But one thing might: I stopped trying so hard to find THE ONE, and just opened up to finding friends — and trying really hard to not put any expectations on anyone. Once I got good at that, I ended up meeting a friend online, found out she really was THE ONE, and married her two months later!! God’s timing was amazing. After years of asking Him to hurry up, I finally turned it over to Him and chose to be patient. And in almost no time, He decided it was finally time!
We’ve been married for almost 12 years and have two beautiful daughters. Obviously, this isn’t much in the way of advice, and things are different for everyone. But I hope you take encouragement in our story. Things can change FAST when God wants them to!
God bless!
My best relationship advice? Don’t try so hard. Be the best you you can be for *you*. Your special someone will find you, as long as you get out of the house. Do things that you find interesting. Make a list of things you want to experience & do them. It seems like we never really explore the area where we live, and you live in one fantastic state. Besides, I don’t think you’re going to find love in a singles bar, not based upon what I can glean about you from your site & tweets. Just be yourself, enjoy yourself, and get out there!
BTW, a guy that can be open about all of this stuff and wants to work on self-improvement can be very attractive 
Seriously good advice from both of you guys. I’ll be following up with a post shortly.